I know I said I'd start a new journal. Not yet. I have to come up with a name for it first. But for now, I have to write. I need a record of everything that happens to me. I hate to forget. Even the bad things.
My life is in turmoil. The center is closing at the end of this year. I can relocate or take the severance package. I want to relocate to Phoenix, so I can keep my job. Justin doesn't want to. We have to consider so many factors. I think if we are being totally practical, moving makes more sense. But our families are here. And a big change is scary.
I've been thinking about Melanie lately. Not sure why. Sometimes little things just remind me of her. Sometimes things in my life make me wish I had a sister to talk to. Right now I feel a bit alone.
"Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on"
-The Weepies, "World Spins Madly On"
Just realized I included a sad quote in my last entry, also. *shrug* I like to write when I'm sad, I guess.
I'm married now, by the way. For those whose only contact with me is through this journal.
Valentine's day was nice. Justin gave me Tanzanite earrings and a matching necklace. I love Tanzanite. I took him to Leblon, the Brazilian steakhouse. Lots of meat! It was great. One waiter there kept talking to himself. haha.
"I was made for sunny days
I made do with grey, but I didn't stay
I was made for sunny days
And I was made for you"
-The Weepies, "I was made for sunny days"
I'm so behind, there's no way to update on everything that's happened. This won't have any rhyme or reason, but here goes. A mix of good, bad, funny, and sad.
Got Justin a button-up shirt for xmas (along with some camping stuff and a jacket)...when he wears it, he gets called "Ivory Snaps"
I'm getting laser hair removal on my armpits. It feels like getting stabbed repeatedly with tiny hot needles. Much better if they ice my pits ahead of time. Haha. I have 2 treatments left.
Justin's aunt passed away. My aunt Faith passed away a week later. :-/ We went to see Aunt Faith in a nursing home just a few days before she passed. We almost waited until the following weekend, because we didn't realize how sick she was. So glad we didn't wait. It would have been too late.
After Justin's aunt passed away, we attended the viewing with his family, and after the viewing, we went to have dinner at their house. His dad passed out in the hallway and went to the hospital in an ambulance. He was okay, just dehydrated apparently. Everybody was frantic as he lay on the floor, cracking jokes and apologizing. Apologizing!
Ahh that's all I have for right now.
Your life is yours alone.
Rise up and live it.
- Not done with this journal yet...